The Real Me

My fellow blogger made mention to me and about a song that I am preparing to sing at our church. It is my current life song and means soooo much to me. I think many people feel this way. I am so thankful that I serve a God that can love the real me even with all of my faults and mistakes.
Satan comes to us and tells us we don't deserve to have a happy life and how could anyone accept us because we XXXX. (Whatever our vice or weakness is). The truth is we don't deserve it. It is only through the grace and mercy of our Saviour that we can have this.

I am including the lyrics below.

Dean, Thanks for the inspiration to write this post.


The Real Me

Foolish heart looks like we're here again
Same old game of plastic smile
Don't let anybody in
Hiding my heartache,
will this glass house break?
How much will they take before I'm empty
Do I let it show, does anybody know?

But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me

Painted on, life is behind a mask
Self-inflicted circus clown
I'm tired of the song and dance
Living a Charade, always on parade
What a mess I've made of my existence
But you love me even now
And still I see somehow

But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me

Wonderful, beautiful is what you see
When you look at me
You're turning the tattered fabric of my life
intoA perfect tapestry
I just wanna be me

But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me
And you love me just as I am

Wonderful, Beautiful is what you see
When you look at me

Still alive and kickin

I was made aware that I never update my page by one of my friends. The same friend that dropped her gum in the floor then blamed me for spitting my gum out. HAHA You know who you are. LOL Ok. My page is now updated.

Emotions

Ok. This is a s strangs post and I know that before I even publish it. I read in one of my friend's blogs that she is on a merry go round. I think it is amazing how a person can go through so many emotions in two hours - even more in a day.

Here is an example. I am watching a movie this afternoon. I went from angry to sad to happy back to sad to nervous to happy again. WHEW. That seems like a roller coaster. It is crazy that you can be worn out and never leave your recliner or couch.

My emotion right now is nervous. I am nervous about my sinus surgery next Thursday. I have lots of thoughts that are making me nervous. What happens if one of my kids accidentally hits my nose and messes something up. I dread the pain. What if my face is disgustingly swollen and I have to go back to work? What if I am not recovered very much when Dawson has his surgery and I am not able to give him the best?

I am worried that I am going to oversleep in the morning. My best friend's daughter is getting dedicated tomorrow morning. What if I oversleep and miss it? The problem is I can't go to sleep.

Oh well I am going to go and try again. Good night.

Amanda

Catscans of Dawson

Here are a couple pictures from Dawson's catscan. I have circled the spots that have to be worked on.

Peer Pressure

I have joined the band wagon of Blogging I guess. I have blogged before as you can see I have like 60ish posts but haven't posted since 2005. Since a few of my friends have started posting blogs I thought I might as well. My son will be having surgery on March 11th in Vanderbilt. I have set up a caringbridge site up for him. I will put a link to it in the links section. Hope everyone is having a great weekend.

Later,

Amanda

Update.

Well, Yes it has been a while since I wrote. I have been pretty busy. I have started working some in the other building AKA Beverly Hills. The person that took my place in my old building AKA Detroit does not have their clearance yet. So, someone has to work with him. He is not allowed to look at the computer screen. The lady that works the early shift at the desk in my old building is on vacation this week. So, I am working 12 hours all 5 days this week. Yes, I am going to be worn out but I will enjoy that paycheck. I don't mind working so much but I hate that my husband has to do everything. Take the kids to school/daycare and pick them up. I am lucky I have a great husband.

Last night was the children's program at my church. I direct the 1st - 3rd grade choir. I was really shocked at how well they did. They really blessed me last night. This will be my last week directing. I did not feel that this is where God wanted me to be. I feel that I need to spend more time with the youth. The Youth and Adult choir will be doing our Christmas program on the 18th. I really wanted to go to my friend's church to see his cantata also but they moved his to the exact same time as ours. UGH!

I am already tired already. It is only 8:00 on my first day. Maybe time will fly by. I can only hope. I will try to put a picture of some form on here soon. Hope you have a great day!

Amanda

This is the veteran's day parade. I was part of the commitee. I was/am the budget person..... Still waiting on receipts. 

jordan at pumpkin patch 

Dawson after 1st surgery.